by Anne Utterback | May 4, 2018 | Blogging, God's Whisper, Life
The stumbling blocks I put in my path stem from pride.
I stumble, also known as sin. I sin. There are too many to list here, and I am not sure my heart could take reading the entire list. Truthfully, my pride would not be able to take it. However, God uses gentle reminders and His word to guide me to the truth. This reminds me of a verse:
“Whoever loves his brother lives in the light, and there is nothing in him to make him stumble” 1 John 2:10.
As I keep rereading the verse, I stop to listen. The last part is what keeps ringing true in my life. How many times have I stumbled? Many, many times and if I am stumbling, then I am not fully in the light. It amazes me how quickly I can get engulfed with darkness. Dwelling on past moments of stumbling, replaying conversations, and prideful thinking are a few.
Dwelling on past moments of stumbling …
When I sit and allow my mind to go towards past moments of sin, I slowly get entangled in the dark. Thinking of past hurts keep me from walking on God’s lighted path. Looking backwards, I am no longer able to look ahead. Therefore, I stumble again and again. Learning from the past is beneficial, but the key is to learn, then move on and not repeat. This leads to my next stumbling block.
Replaying conversations …
Along with dwelling on past moments are replaying the conversations that coincide. I cannot change the past but I will waste countless hours thinking about it. How does this accomplish anything? It doesn’t, however letting go and reading the Word will reveal truth. Romans 15:4 is a perfect illustration.
Such things were written in the Scriptures long ago to teach us. And the Scriptures give us hope and encouragement as we wait patiently for God’s promises to be fulfilled. Romans 15:4
Learning from the Scripture gives me hope.
Prideful thinking …
As I mentioned at the beginning of this blog, I have struggled with pride. The moment I repented and acknowledged God for who He is, my eyes were unveiled. At the root of my stumbling blocks was pride. Pride had taken a hold of my life. Pride can be positive but not so in my case. It created fear in me. The fear of being wrong. Yes, how silly it sounds. But the emotion behind it was intense for me. My face would get red. I felt defeated.
Once I began seeing how pride had interwoven into my hurts and brokenness, I could see the destruction it had caused. I began to say “I’m sorry” and “I am wrong”. Simple phrases and yet healing for me and others. My relationships became better, more meaningful.
God the healer …
Of course I would like to say that it has been stumble-free since the moment I gave my life and heart to God, but that is not the case. God is constantly working and revealing sins in my life, some are obvious but others are harbored way down deep. I had created bitter roots and black spots in my heart. These sins cause me to stumble but with God’s love I am able to acknowledge the sin and ask for His forgiveness. I don’t sit and dwell like I used to, I change my thought pattern quicker, and I continue to let go of pride.
Pride leads to conflict; those who take advice are wise. Proverbs 13:10
I would rather be wise than right. By right, I mean think my opinion is the best. There is nothing wise about that or right for that matter. Therefore, I will continue to read the Word and align my heart to His.
How are you stumbling?
by Anne Utterback | Apr 9, 2018 | Blogging, God's Whisper, Life
The challenge – writing 500 words for 30 days. I want to finish strong. And yet, I have learned several unexpected things about myself during this challenge. I wasn’t expecting any life change. I was just trying to write, to make it a habit. However, the lessons have been a beautiful surprise.
Challenge lesson #1 – Knowing I am on the right path …
I felt that God has challenged me to write for many years. He has also given me a passion for teaching. I was a math teacher and have home schooled my boys since kindergarten. The desire to constantly learn and study has been part of me since I was young. Through this challenge God has renewed that desire and passion. He calls me to study the Bible and learn from it then pass that along to others. Word studies on Bible verses stir my soul. They are reminders to me how I am to live my life. My life for Him. I write for Him, not for me.
Challenge Lesson #4 – I am not a morning person, at least not yet …
I read time and time again that getting up early before others allows one to get so much more done in the day. I tried. I tried for several days in a row. I have my alarm set for 6:45 am to get ready for work. I needed to set my alarm for 5:30 am to have time to write. I also love my morning coffee. What better way to start the day then to sit quietly with my coffee and computer. I tried. I really did. But I just stared into the abyss the first morning.
The next morning, I finally was able to get some words down. I literally wrote all the random thoughts down that bounced around in my head. The third day I did much better and wrote something logical. The fourth day I quit. I can’t remember if I had a head ache or what was going on, but I didn’t get up. I eventually just shut off that 5:45 am alarm. I now write after 9:00 pm. It might not be ideal, however in my current situation, it is working.
Challenge lesson #3 – Momentum and ideas and ideas …
I can now sit down and begin typing within minutes. Sometimes I would use the prompts given to help spur the writing process, but I have found that I can go without. I have begun to really dig into my day and life. When I am lacking anything from my personal life, I do word studies on Bible verses. I can easily complete 500 words with one verse. I get on my bible app on my phone and look up the daily verses. I have e-sword on my computer, so it makes doing the study simple. Then I relate it to my life whether from the past, present or future.
Challenge lesson #4 – Unprecedented growth and encouragement …
The time I have spent searching my soul has given me courage. I am learning to be brave. Reading and studying the Word has drawn me closer to God and when I am closer to God; I am closer to others. My relationships are better, more fruitful. I am kinder. I begin to bear the fruit of the spirit. My words are seasoned with salt. My light shines. The light that God has placed within because of Jesus. People like me better. I don’t smell of fear and fish …
Unexpected lessons …
I am thankful for this challenge. It had unexpected lessons, but I learned to persevere through tiredness, blank computer screens, no inspiration, and constant editing. I know this is the right path, to study the Word, teach others with encouragement, persevere, and to be brave.
by Anne Utterback | Mar 24, 2018 | Blogging, God's Whisper, Life, Marriage
I have the ability to be at ease and sleep well, as long as my husband is laying next to me. Even when he snores and I have to wear my earplugs. However, a few years ago I was put to the test.
Scott was going to be gone for a month on a mission trip and he added a little site seeing time as well. He had been gone before, but this was his longest trip. Also, I was going to be home by myself with our two boys for the entire time. I usually would coordinate my trips to see my family with his. This made the time go by faster and it was much easier to be apart.
But this time it was in May and I was working full-time. I was not able to get away. It was the 2nd or 3rd night and I was laying in our king size bed alone. I couldn’t sleep. Every noise would, my eyes opened and ears perked up. I would then create scenarios as to what was creating this unusual sound. I would slowly get up. Tip-toe around the house. Locate this new strange noise. Only to discover it was not new or strange. Crawl back in bed and repeat. I knew I wouldn’t be able to function this way for long, especially with on no sleep. I would start to get grumpy.
Then I heard God speak to me, “Annie, who protects you?”
“You do.” I responded.
He replied, “I am the One who protects you. There will be a time when Scott is not going to be there. But I will always be there. I am your all in all. I am your protector.”
He lets me rest in green meadows; he leads me beside peaceful streams. Psalm 23:2
I slept great. There have been nights when I need to remind myself of that moment. The doubts start to creep in. The fear can be overwhelming, but God is there.
I also began to think about how many years I lived alone. I slept before I met Scott. There are times when we put unrealistic expectations on our spouses. They are not God. They are not going to fix everything. When we put godly expectations on humans, they disappoint us. Does this mean ‘bad things’ will never happen? No. But what I do know is that God is my Protector. He is in control always. He is not surprised by anything.
Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me. Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me. Psalm 23:4
We say how great our faith is, yet we don’t sleep at night? Really? Do we not see the contradiction? I am guessing that most people slept before they were married? Just a guess, so why has it suddenly changed? Yes, there are moments that can create worry: job, living in a bad neighborhood, people have gone crazy, kids not at home, watching the news, waiting for test results, finances, etc.
“So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.” Matthew 6:34
Worry adds an entirely new twist to sleeplessness. This was about fear and conquering that fear when my husband is not home. But don’t worry, I will discuss worry another day …
Can you sleep when your spouse is not home? Do they work nights? Are they frequent travelers? Get some sleep beautiful. God’s got you! He is the Protector.
